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when it feels like everything has changed, but nothing really has

I’ve tried to write this post several times now, but wow. What do I even say? It feels weird to just keep moving on without even acknowledging the craziness of last week, but at the same time I don’t really know what to say about it.

I’ve been blogging for nearly six years, and somewhere along the way I realized that I really loved writing. My blog sort of transitioned from a place to share life updates to a place to share my heart and my stories. I write because I love it and because God has given me a story to share. I woke up Monday morning ready to write, just like ever other Monday morning. I never thought my little post would go viral. On the one hand, it was really encouraging and fun to have others appreciate my story and my writing in such a big way. On the other hand, it is a bit scary.

As I’ve thought about what to do now, I realized the answer is simple: just keep doing what I’ve been doing… keep writing. All of this attention has left me a little frozen. I’ve had so many questions, “What do I write about next?” “Who are all these new followers and what are their stories?” “Why are people so interested in our family?” But the reality is, nothing has changed.

For now, there might be a small spotlight on this site. But, nothing has really changed. So I will continue to write and publish the posts waiting in my drafts box and keep doing what I’ve been doing for the last six years. And as new opportunities present themselves I’ll explore and consider them to  see what’s right for me and my family.

Now, with that being said, I do want to say thank you. Truly. I’ve been overwhelmed by the love sent our way this past week! Your comments and emails have really touched my heart and I’m so grateful! Because, as you know, not all attention is good attention. What started out as a confusing but fun week, ended on a low note as a hate group found my site and sent the most vile and racist comments I’ve ever read in my life. All of the loving and supportive messages have far outweighed the bad, though, and I just want to say that I’ve been humbled by your kindness.  

Since I can’t respond to every single email and comment I wanted to share a couple more things…

First, I haven’t found the Trader Joe’s employee yet, but we are working on it and hopefully will have fun news to share this week! Second, some of you have wondered why it took me nearly two years to write this post and I have to admit I laugh a little every time I read that comment. The internet is such a funny place. I actually did write this post two years ago, right after it happened! Then, I was asked by staff at The Mighty if I would write up a post for their site about a time I had received a special gift. This experience was still so special to me that I reworked (as in, corrected some grammar) the post a bit and republished it. Who know why it took off this time, and didn’t two years ago?! I’ve been baffled by that.

I hope my new friends and readers will stick around and explore a little. I hope you find this space encouraging and uplifting. My goal is to post three times a week, and if you’d like those posts delivered to your inbox you can subscribe by entering your email address over there in the sidebar just below our family picture. You can also join the community on facebook , and on instagram (where I share lots of pictures of the kids and family moments), and twitter where I pretend to know what’s going on even though I just started tweeting last month and really don’t understand it.

Tomorrow I’ll be back to my regular writing and I hope you’ll join me! For now, I’ll leave you with a picture of the moment we became the family we are today. This was snapped right after I stepped off the plane from Ethiopia with Arsema… John and Mareto were waiting with balloons and open arms.


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