Five years ago we said goodbye to a precious little life. Five years ago I sat on my bed weeping and struggling to understand why this was happening to us yet again. Five years ago the future looked uncertain and a little bleak. Five years ago my heart was breaking into a thousand pieces – opening wounds still fresh from our first loss. Five years ago I didn’t really understand what redemption meant and I certainly couldn’t see how this day, July 10th, would ever hold happy memories.
But God knew. Five years ago he heard my sobs and saved my tears. Five years ago he listened to every confused prayer and desperate plea. Five years ago he was welcoming our second child into heaven… all the while knowing what our future would hold and that it was anything but bleak.
Two babies in heaven… now two on earth. Today he turned our mourning into dancing. Today he gave us a reason to celebrate and ease the ache that always comes on the 10th of July. Today he gave us a court date. Today we learned that we’ll spend our 7th wedding anniversary in Ethiopia. Today we learned that we are just a few short weeks away from holding our baby girl.
So today I choose JOY. Today I see the gifts we’ve been given and life God planned all along. Today I see that he makes broken things beautiful again. Today I see that he has redeemed what once seemed to be so awful that it would never be okay.
Today I rejoice in the hope that I have in heaven. I am thankful that I have a Father who loves to give us special gifts. Today I am grateful for a God who cares about our hurts and knows just what we need.
Today I am thankful for HIS plan and HIS dreams for my little life. They are far greater and more precious than anything I could have ever come up with.
“If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” Matthew 7:11
** We received a court date of July 30th! We will meet our baby girl on July 28th. We are so thankful to have made it into court before the rainy season! Thank you all for your prayers and support!**